Today in Church I had a realization: This guy that was giving a talk today and compared us to the Wizard of Oz, and how we are the cowardly Lion and we need to stand up and fight for our belief's. Well I took it one step further to compare myself to the Tin man. People tell me that I don't have a heart, and I have been told that so many times that I decided to believe it.
Until I realized that I do have a heart, and in actuality I think I have a very large heart. I think my problem is that I love too much. I have let so many people into my heart and they just take it for granted, and after I have been walked all over on and left high and dry, and another piece of me has been taken.
Yes, I do think that people may be partially right when they tell me I don't have a heart. I'm tired of getting my heart ripped out by others and stomped all over that I have blocked off my heart and I don't let people in. Unfortunately as a result of this "protective barrier" I have put around me has in fact actually put me at a disadvantage because I appear heartless.
This year my resolution is to become more approachable and meet new people. So that I can work on opening up myself to others instead of shutting myself off.
That's all. The End.
As of late
11 years ago
3 comments:
jodi, i love that insight! i was about to say: you are NOT heartless. but you know that. i understand what you're saying, and i'm proud of you for wanting to do something about it. if you need any help or support or anything... i'm always here for ya girl. i love you!
The Jodi I remember didn't seem heartless! It is good to do a deep scan of ourselves occasionally and see where improvement is needed. I am sure you will become your wonderful sweet self again real soon. I really don't believe you ever lost her anyway!!! :-)
I think you have a wondeful big and giving heart. Sometimes we do need to protect our heart from others, and that is a sad thing. Continue to trust in the Lord and do your best to be charitable without being walked on. I LOVE YOUR HEART!
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